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so lost .... i feel so much an am so afraid to talk about it cuz i know it will do nothing an nothing will get better so i sit here hurting an upset not knowing what to do i know what i feel but it means nothing if im in it alone i just wish things would have been like how they were promised i had really put my hopes into it only to have them smashed an broken but oh well why care why even bother to try anymore when im alone im the only one willing to change an better myself an its not fair.. its not fair to me or my children so what do i do... i dont want to lose the one thing i want more than anything but why does it have to hurt so much